I want to text you but I'm afraid when it comes to the part of "How are you?" I wouldn't be able to answer that question.

How will I say that I'm upset and stressed out? That a family member just died. How? I don't want to put you in a awkward position.

So here I am, contemplating whether to text you or not. To open up to you, another guy.

I just don't know, my brain says.
But my heart says go for it. Be brave.

I'm just torn.