I want to text you but I'm afraid when it comes to the part of "How are you?" I wouldn't be able to answer that question.

How will I say that I'm upset and stressed out? That a family member just died. How? I don't want to put you in a awkward position.

So here I am, contemplating whether to text you or not. To open up to you, another guy.

I just don't know, my brain says.
But my heart says go for it. Be brave.

I'm just torn.

Most romantic language, I'd say

In French, you don't really say "I miss you."
You say "Tu me manques." Which is clear for "You are missing from me."

I love that. "You are missing from me."
You are a part of me, you are essential to me being.
You are like a limb, or an organ, or blood. I cannot function without you.

Just normal girly thoughts...

Boys have come and gone away from my life. It's seems as if I can only attract them for a while then,BOOM, its over.

Maybe its me. Maybe God doesn't think its time for me to find or meet the perfect one.

Anyone know about the apple analogy? Well maybe God is waiting for me to fully develop. To blossom into something wonderful, not that I'm not wonderful in his eyes already, but to become into something that can be cherished forever. To be that one of a kind fruit that someone, with the right taste, will eventually see and discover. To be something precious. To be loved as me.

I've been asking people how they met their spouses. And I found out that the happier ones were married to their bestfriends while the ones that were just "let's get married, it seems perfect that we do so" are the ones that have dysfunctional relationships.

Well... Bye guys gotta go get a bestfriend now!

You can never forget about your first..

They're always be there lingering behind your mind.

They're always be a piece of you no matter how long its been.

They'll always be haunting you in your dream.

She felt nothing but sorrow
Nothing good was to come from tomorrow
Everyone has deserted her
Acting as if she was no better than dirt
It wasn't her-- it was their choice
In this situation, she had no voice
People leaving
People fleeing

She thought she had no one
But someone new has come
He didnt judge her
He was better than some sir
She was treasured in his heart
He didn't treat her like crap

Now she's thinking of ways
To spend their days
Whether be in parks, cars, or watching stars
For all she cares, they go to mars

She has found the one
He has finally come

She trusted him
They talked about all their dreams
For once they were free
The days they spent were full of glee
Dancing, singing, and laughing
She was soo inlove
She put him above all else
No one saw what happened next
It all ended with a bet
He gambled
And with that everything else crumbled
Her days were filled with tear stained eyes
Nothing was heard, even her cries
Until one day she stopped
Never cared so everything dropped
People see her as tough
Never knowing she had enough
Of all the shit
That the guys fret

All she now sees are red and black
Cringing about everything she got
Soo full of anger and disdain
But no one knows she's in pain

Love comes and goes
Your pretense is just for show
No one really knows
What is in that bitter heart of yours

But one day will come
Where your shield will crumble some
Showing that that bitter heart is gone
And your heart has shone

That person who will be
The one to receive thee will be no one other than me

So please babe
Save all your days
To your one and only flam

I want the real thing

Funny how during the summer everyone is all excited to find that someone that they could talk about during fall.

When fall comes everyone fantasizes about sitting near a fireplace with a cozy blanket and that special someone to snuggled with.

Then there's spring. Where people start waking up in the illusion they've been on throughout the year. When they just remembers to have fun and devil may care what happens.

Spring is where we start a new. Spring is where I want to be.

It was all just a tragedy
Everyone's eyes were filled with sympathy
Where ever I'd go, I lose a bit of our fantasy
I thought you were the one; my destiny

But I was played by faith
Even with our first date
And when you got me a cake
I didn't know what we had was just a mistake

And now all I see are all the tears that fall
Making me want to crawl
My one and only goal
Has come to a stall

But my day will come.
Where everything else will come undone

His eyes

They are as blue as the sky
Without it, I know I'd die
It would point down when you're shy
And sparkle as if you'd never cried

It shows wonder and joy
Sometimes it may seem coy
But I know that you're the only boy
That I would never play with as a toy

You're soo full of life
As gracious as a swimmer's dive
With a personality full of vibe

I know I'll never amount to you
That's why I'll stick to looking at those wonderful eyes of blue