2 Bee Or Not To Bee

Never knew that I'd finally find a guy that could love me for what I am and not for what they could make me to be. Nothing in the world could explain how much I love this guy. He fought for me when I needed to be defended. He's loved me for my flaws plus everything else that comes with me.. weird family, dysfunctional social life and... and me. 

Awkward, anti-social,ordinary me. Yuck. 

I want to text you but I'm afraid when it comes to the part of "How are you?" I wouldn't be able to answer that question.

How will I say that I'm upset and stressed out? That a family member just died. How? I don't want to put you in a awkward position.

So here I am, contemplating whether to text you or not. To open up to you, another guy.

I just don't know, my brain says.
But my heart says go for it. Be brave.

I'm just torn.

Most romantic language, I'd say

In French, you don't really say "I miss you."
You say "Tu me manques." Which is clear for "You are missing from me."

I love that. "You are missing from me."
You are a part of me, you are essential to me being.
You are like a limb, or an organ, or blood. I cannot function without you.

Just normal girly thoughts...

Boys have come and gone away from my life. It's seems as if I can only attract them for a while then,BOOM, its over.

Maybe its me. Maybe God doesn't think its time for me to find or meet the perfect one.

Anyone know about the apple analogy? Well maybe God is waiting for me to fully develop. To blossom into something wonderful, not that I'm not wonderful in his eyes already, but to become into something that can be cherished forever. To be that one of a kind fruit that someone, with the right taste, will eventually see and discover. To be something precious. To be loved as me.

I've been asking people how they met their spouses. And I found out that the happier ones were married to their bestfriends while the ones that were just "let's get married, it seems perfect that we do so" are the ones that have dysfunctional relationships.

Well... Bye guys gotta go get a bestfriend now!

You can never forget about your first..

They're always be there lingering behind your mind.

They're always be a piece of you no matter how long its been.

They'll always be haunting you in your dream.

She felt nothing but sorrow
Nothing good was to come from tomorrow
Everyone has deserted her
Acting as if she was no better than dirt
It wasn't her-- it was their choice
In this situation, she had no voice
People leaving
People fleeing

She thought she had no one
But someone new has come
He didnt judge her
He was better than some sir
She was treasured in his heart
He didn't treat her like crap

Now she's thinking of ways
To spend their days
Whether be in parks, cars, or watching stars
For all she cares, they go to mars

She has found the one
He has finally come